Yes admittedly Am I Soup Yet? is borrowed from the Lipton Soup commercials of many years ago ie Is It Soup Yet? I think about this in terms of am I done, am I ready, meaning am I done with worrying about how I look and what I have accomplished and if I am popular enough. Everyone can substitute their own categories for this. Here goes my take on my top three.
The first I discussed in my last post on channeling my internal Marilyn Monroe. I decided to pick a date six months out and try on my clothes then and keep what fits that I like, deciding that I will officially stop dieting that day. At that point I will have been on approximately a 21 year on and off diet and that feels like enough is enough. The world doesn’t care if my clothes are size 4 or size 10 and I would rather be a very cute size 10 then a wrinkled up size 4. Check back July 13th for an update about this.
The second area is have I accomplished enough. My late great therapist said that my resume is long enough. I have two Master’s degrees and have been to real estate and bartending school and have studied painting and singing for years and I write, paint, sing, teach, counsel. I wanted to add in voice over work, mock patient work, and extra work but have wisely put those on hold.
The third area relates to am I popular enough. This has been the hard one for me. I was always very cute and very slim for many years and my many interests has made for a very fun if sometimes overwhelming life. However as a child I was shy, ugly and unpopular and there was a lot of family strife in my childhood home. Since I went away to college I have had plenty of friends, however up until recently if I was in a class with 30 other people and just one of them didn’t like me I would get so focused and distracted by this. This changed when I was laid up for several months with a broken hip several years ago and had 50 visitors. I never felt so well loved at any other time in my whole life and realized that I had plenty of friends to last a lifetime and then some.
I realized I am a beautiful, popular and accomplished soup. I hope that you feel that you are as well!