Michele Williams

Tales of Life from a True Renaissance Woman…

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Yes admittedly Am I Soup Yet? is borrowed from the Lipton Soup commercials of many years ago ie Is It Soup Yet? I think about this in terms of am I done, am I ready, meaning am I done with worrying about how I look and what I have accomplished and if I am popular enough. Everyone can substitute their own categories for this. Here goes my take on my top three.

The first I discussed in my last post on channeling my internal Marilyn Monroe. I decided to pick a date six months out and try on my clothes then and keep what fits that I like, deciding that I will officially stop dieting that day. At that point I will have been on approximately a 21 year on and off diet and that feels like enough is enough. The world doesn’t care if my clothes are size 4 or size 10 and I would rather be a very cute size 10 then a wrinkled up size 4. Check back July 13th for an update about this.

The second area is have I accomplished enough. My late great therapist said that my resume is long enough. I have two Master’s degrees and have been to real estate and bartending school and have studied painting and singing for years and I write, paint, sing, teach, counsel. I wanted to add in voice over work, mock patient work, and extra work but have wisely put those on hold.

The third area relates to am I popular enough. This has been the hard one for me. I was always very cute and very slim for many years and my many interests has made for a very fun if sometimes overwhelming life. However as a child I was shy, ugly and unpopular and there was a lot of family strife in my childhood home. Since I went away to college I have had plenty of friends, however up until recently if I was in a class with 30 other people and just one of them didn’t like me I would get so focused and distracted by this. This changed when I was laid up for several months with a broken hip several years ago and had 50 visitors. I never felt so well loved at any other time in my whole life and realized that I had plenty of friends to last a lifetime and then some.

I realized I am a beautiful, popular and accomplished soup. I hope that you feel that you are as well!

It is so easy to feel depressed. Perhaps it is due to world events or events in your own city or perhaps things are not going ideally in your work life, it could be family or friend or health or romantic or housing issues for a few examples. My usual ways of dealing with this tend to be talking these issues to death and  luckily for me I have a lot of friends who listen to all this and unluckily for them they have to hear all this. Also I am a stress eater which is why 20 extra pounds keeps finding its way on and off my body. So on a recent Sunday when I was feeling depressed I decided to have a love fest day. Perhaps this is a cousin to a gratitude day. It was very simple I sent out some I love you e mails to friends. One reported that she was going to contact me anyway to see about my picking up my annual Christmas gift from her,  homemade hazelnut bread. She invited me to pick it up, also had some lovely pins for me from her collection that look fabulous on my beret and I was able to snack on pecans dipped into peppermint buttercream as she was baking away when on got there. It was a lovely day when the world is feeling like too much I recommend a love fest even if just for a day.